As of late i am still wrapping my head around that i have lost my second child. I know it was cells multipling but I never thought for a second that I would be going through this again.
I havent dealt with the emotions yet since i am on holidays. I want to cry so badly. Since we are visiting family i cant show how devasted I am inside. I keep thinking what did I do wrong. Normally i wouldnt be blaming myself but it very hard not to.
My husband has talked of trying again, but i cant bring myself to even think about trying. Since the miscarriage has ended i am starting to question if its worth even trying for a baby. I cant stand the heartbreak again.