My Dreams

I have had many dreams through out my life, some where short lifed and some haven’t happened yet. But every night i close my eyes i see new ones come forth. Some in bright bursts of colors and other are slow to form. But as of late i havent had my bright bursts of color, it been inky blackness for a while know. Along with the feeling of lossing hope.

I miss the girl who had these amazing dreams and try to bring them to life. With the swift movement of a paint brush on a canvas. But know i feel old as the mountains with a stillness in my soul like solid ice. No more is the roar of the rivers that would carry me away.

Last night as i slept i saw 2 sprites of blue and green. They kept hovering over me telling me they are always with me. I tried to talk but couldnt not. My heart ached so much, i closed it off long ago cause of the pain. Seeing these creatures, hearing them talk to me in a caring way. Started melting my heart.I put out my hand to them and they rested there. The warmth from them was astonishing. I felt a kinship with them and i knew right then they were mine.

I kept repeating i loved them and missed them so much. And that this time of year was always the hardest without them. I wanted them so badly but wasnt to be. They snuggled my cheek and told me they knew all this. And thay they never left me. They told me to have hope again and to stop so much like ice. I can grieve for them and little by little it will get easier. As they snuggled one last time, they floated away and out the window.

I awoke with tears on my cheeks and wondered if that really happened or if it was the wine talking. I went about my day and never forgot my dream and who knows maybe it was true.

Peach Infinity Scarf

I did this infinity scarf up for a good friend of mine for christmas. Its an Acrylic mohair mix. It was definitly different working this type of yarn. It snapped alot so that drove me alittle crazy but i am happy with how it turned out. I used a 5.5mm hook and its 30 stitches wide.

3 mnths in

Life with 2 kiddos is sure crazy at times. I am trying to potty train pussycat but she always asks when im feeding little bear. I was and still am expecting jealousy from her yet. So far its been going good on that end. She does try to help with her brother like feeding etc. And she talks to him when he is in his bed. And he is cooing back more slowly. It is neat watching little bear doing more things. Like cooing and trying to crawl when he does tummy time. And he loves water like his sister as well. So this aummer we will be doing swimming for sure.

And i am getting further into little bears blanket in between projects for the etsy shop i will be starting. I got a lot of yarn that i wont go through since i generally buy yarn for the projects i do like pussycats blanket, little bears blanket and my mangers scarf etc. I know i should be using the yarn i got but i see what colors i want to use and i generally dont have them in my stash. It will be more scarfs, blankets etc.

I have had alot of people well more so from the crochet group that theres no money in etc and i was asking a simple question over pricing. It gets disheartening when you see those comments. I get people dont want to for homemade items since they can get a cheaper version at the box stores. But in my opinion they should have just explained how they would price and thats it not tell me theres no money in it. I dont mind if the items sit for while in the shop. Its more of a part time thing and once im out im out until i put make more items. With in a community like that we should be uplifting and encouraging each other. Since we all have different styles. I did that with one kid at my work she makes crochet ballons, scrunchies etc. But on a happy note i am working a 3rd item for my shop! I will try to post when i get the items done.

Everyone have a happy holidays and please keep safe and warm in this cold weather.