I have had many dreams through out my life, some where short lifed and some haven’t happened yet. But every night i close my eyes i see new ones come forth. Some in bright bursts of colors and other are slow to form. But as of late i havent had my bright bursts of color, it been inky blackness for a while know. Along with the feeling of lossing hope.
I miss the girl who had these amazing dreams and try to bring them to life. With the swift movement of a paint brush on a canvas. But know i feel old as the mountains with a stillness in my soul like solid ice. No more is the roar of the rivers that would carry me away.
Last night as i slept i saw 2 sprites of blue and green. They kept hovering over me telling me they are always with me. I tried to talk but couldnt not. My heart ached so much, i closed it off long ago cause of the pain. Seeing these creatures, hearing them talk to me in a caring way. Started melting my heart.I put out my hand to them and they rested there. The warmth from them was astonishing. I felt a kinship with them and i knew right then they were mine.
I kept repeating i loved them and missed them so much. And that this time of year was always the hardest without them. I wanted them so badly but wasnt to be. They snuggled my cheek and told me they knew all this. And thay they never left me. They told me to have hope again and to stop so much like ice. I can grieve for them and little by little it will get easier. As they snuggled one last time, they floated away and out the window.
I awoke with tears on my cheeks and wondered if that really happened or if it was the wine talking. I went about my day and never forgot my dream and who knows maybe it was true.